Warning – Whinny Post Alert!!!!
I’m so tired. And I’m tired of saying, “I’m so tired”. And my husband and friends are tired of hearing “I’m so tired”. But I’m so tired.
I just can’t seem to recover. I have been exhausted since my second trimester. So basically, I have been exhausted for a year now. No one tells you that. And it’s not that I don’t ever sleep. I sleep. But not the same quality of sleep I had before. I don’t think I’ve just woken up on my own since I gave birth. There is always something or someone waking me up. Admittedly that the “someone” is the most adorable human being ever – but nonetheless, waking up to his screams is quite a jarring experience.
The other day I was complaining explaining to someone that I feel like I work two full time jobs. I work all day and then come home and try to be a good mom. Then I physically drop at 9:30. Most nights I don’t even have enough energy to read a couple of pages of a great book I’m trying to read. This morning I noticed that my eyebrows are out of control. I just haven’t had time to pluck. My house is a mess and dirty. I haven’t updated John Patrick’s album since he was three months old. And I’m sure most of my friends think I’m a big selfish hermit because I never call anyone anymore.
Did I mention that I’m so tired? Ok, and admittedly, feeling sorry for myself. Believe me, I KNOW that I’m not the only working and tired mom out there. But how do you all do it? And am I ever going to feel rested again? Sometimes I just daydream about checking into a fancy hotel, drawing the curtains shut, turning the air conditioner down really low, and sleeping for a good 14 hours. In this dream, I wake up on my own because I have had enough sleep and it’s a slow process, not a jumping out of bed and running to get a bottle process. But then I realize that even one night away from my pumpkin would make me miserable because I would miss him so much. So I guess it just leaves me with…
I’m so tired.