Some may remember that my grandmother just celebrated her 95th birthday, unfortunately, she passed away this week and I will be attending her funeral tomorrow morning. I am still a little in shock and can’t believe she had really passed. I had begun to believe that she would live forever and I could imagine myself attending her 100th birthday party. I never imagined myself attending her wake and funeral but here I am.
My walk of shame this week would be sadness that I decided not to visit my grandmother this weekend. Omar and I had planned to take Becca to visit my grandmother on Father’s day. She had recently been hospitalized, although she had been doing a little better, and I thought it was important to visit her. But Sunday rolled around, we had had a busy weekend and I got hung up in the idea that since it was Father’s day, we shouldn’t be traveling (Don’t ask me where this idea came from). In any case, I figured I could always visit my grandmother this weekend, right? It wasn’t as if she was going anywhere. So I felt a little guilty about not going but I knew I would have another chance to see her. I never expected to be seeing her this quickly and in this manner.
I would like to light a candle in honor of my grandmother and I am going to be drinking a Beefeater Gin Martini w/ a dash of vermouth in her honor as well.
1913-2008
5 children
13 grandchildren
12 great-grandchildren
You’ll be missed.
With Much Love,
Mary Kate
4 Comments
June 22, 2008 at 8:00 pm
My grandmother died of lung cancer when I was 10 or so. Before she passed, we went to visit her at her home. She was very sick, dying. She never left her bed. I don’t remember the visit, per se, but I remember the last thing I said to her. When it was time to leave, I said “See you later”. I couldn’t bring myself to say goodbye. I regret that.
Your grandmother knew you love her. That’s all that matters.
I’m sorry for your loss. I feel for you.
June 25, 2008 at 6:00 am
Kate~
Thanks! I know you are right. I actually feel a little better about it now. One of the great things about the funeral is I had the opportunity to share many of the great memories I do have of her and didn’t spend as much time discussing all of my regrets.
June 25, 2008 at 11:11 am
I’m so sorry to hear about your grandmother. But it sounds like she had a wonderful long life full of friends, family, love, and laughter. That’s something to celebrate for sure.
June 26, 2008 at 1:47 pm
I’m so sorry for your loss. But I’m sure she knew how much she meant to you and the rest of your family.